dear kiki...

As seen in...

The April/May issue of Digital Scrapbooking Magazine in case you were a total slacker and didn't pick it up.
These are layouts based on a simple scheme by Renee Pearson, basically a set of layouts ready for interpretation.




...and here are two more layouts that did not appear in the magazine...


Using simple schemes to create a mini album...about my sister.  Hope you like them!

hmmm...what kind of sammich should I have for lunch today...

xoxo

In case you haven't heard...

The June/July Digital Scrapbooking Magazine is on newsstands NOW! This is an amazing issue so pick it up if you haven't already! I have another 2 page spread in this issue of a recipe gift album, punk rock vegan style! I will be posting my layouts from the last issue tomorrow so stay tuned.

In other news check out the amazing tofu dill sammich I made myself for lunch today from Vegan with a Vengeance slightly modified by katie. Damn I love Isa!

I love being vegan!
xoxo

Aggresion in a "safe" place...

Hi!  So I'm finally better and I had a really amazing week, hanging with friends after being in quarantine! I danced hard on Friday night which was so very needed and long overdue. Dancing makes me so very happy! Last night, I was supposed to be having a mellow, low key evening with some friends playing BINGO at the Lex (lesbian bar in SF) but there was an unfortunate incident.  Something that should not have happened and was not OK.

I lived in San Diego for 9 years and had to deal with many really aggressive men, a lot of young military, boys who think it's OK to grab women and touch them.  Yeah I have a REAL problem with that, you do not touch me without permission...not OK. I still feel fear and am threatened on a daily basis in SF, I can't walk down the street without being cat called, whistled at, and made to feel inferior. The other day a guy yelled at me from his car, made kissy faces and when I scowled proceeded to make derogatory remarks.  Another time this 35 year old man waited for me to pull my car out of a parking space and with his mother  in the car sitting next to him, winked at me and blew me a kiss.  It seems unreal right? Men can't actually do things like that. Can someone please explain to me where these men learned that this kind of behavior is acceptable? That women have no value other than as hood ornaments? I find that behavior extremely threatening and it bothers me and every other woman I know, yet we can't really fight back, it only provokes the behavior further or will make them spit evil for questioning their masculinity. Then I'm ugly, bitch, dyke, disgusting, whore. What a lovely set of options. Last week my queer friend and I were at a venue filled with straight men and it was horrible. We were followed, harassed, touched repeatedly, and asked to kiss each other...disgusting. I restrained myself from telling the jerks off for touching...maybe I shouldn't have but you can't really reason with inebriated aggressive men. At least I know where to expect threatening behavior for the most part.

Last night however it came at me from an unexpected place. Playing BINGO at the lex with friends. It was over the most ridiculous thing ever. There were 3 of us playing and kind of sharing with the table behind us. My friend knew one of the women at that table. They had some extra cards because a couple of them didn't want to play anymore and I thought the rest had left or something but they were outside. The friend said go ahead and take some cards we are done. I went to the bathroom and came back to one of their party, a trans guy yelling at our friend for taking his bingo card and his friend, a woman we had been talking to earlier was just as pissed off. They were so angry I thought surely it was a joke as did my friends and thus they then thought we were being condescending. He was yelling and getting in our friends face and our friend apologized and tried to explain but it was like talking to a wall. I was frozen in both shock and fear because he was so aggressive I felt it could easily get violent and I didn't know how to make it stop. He threw bingo cards and my face became hot and flushed. It was really scary, I felt like the guy was completely out of control. Our friend eventually just walked away trying to escape the situation. It was horrible, I couldn't speak, neither could my friend. We tried to explain but it wasn't getting through. Another party came over to try and calm down the guy, explaining that our friend felt physically threatened and it wasn't working, the guy couldn't let it go.  He then proceeded to make extremely derogatory comments about our friend with his friend right in front of us, things that shouldn't be said about another person. My face was burning. I tried to explain to his friend again that their friend said it was OK at which point they then both felt like douche bags and he went over to apologize. Then they were pissed at their friend for saying we could take a card. SERIOUSLY people it's just a stupid fucking game! Apparently he felt bad that our friend felt physically threatened etc. and that he felt bad because a female friend had said it was OK.  Um that's what made you think your behavior was inappropriate? WOW...that's scary. My friend was really upset and angry about what happened and his friend tried to talk to her and she wasn't having it.  So then she says to me your friend is still mad, to which I replied no she's not mad, just kind of traumatized. The guys girlfriend then took attitude with me and said what do you mean traumatized. Really? What now my feelings are invalid? Fuck you dude, I have the right to feel however I want about the situation, how dare you try to quantify my emotions. I replied yes, it was upsetting, the confrontation, the yelling we didn't know what to do.

We spent the next two hours processing what had occurred. It was really scary, very threatening and out of control, in a place and community that is supposed to be safe for women. As queer women we have enough violence and aggression to deal with outside of our community we don't need to have it from within. He is in serious denial about his behavior as is his friend a 37 year old dyke that should know better. It's not OK to treat humans that way, it's not OK to physically project your own insecurities on others, it is not OK period. I hope he takes this opportunity to do some self reflection because everyone makes mistakes, drinks too much, whatever but I doubt it. From what I saw everything is someone else's fault.

On the bright side I turn 30 in a week and had 3 people tell me they thought I was 22 or 23...hey I'll take what I can get.

xoxo

Happy Mother's Day

I don't have a phone, I'm sick and in bed and been that way for a week.  A day late. 

Happy Mother's Day Mom, hope you had a nice day.

xoxo

What do I spy...

With my little eye??? Oh just my housemate Scott Barry and his artwork in the latest issue of Juxtapoz Magazine!!! That's all....Scott Barry birdstand check it, on the site and in the mag...seriously effing amazing!!!  Hannah Stouffer's sweet work is also in this issue grand array, so check it as well, damn I know some talented peeps!!  I must admit I got some butterflies in my stomach upon finding their work in the mag...it's kind of a big deal!!!  Congrats Scott and Hannah some of SF's finest!! Speaking of Scott look at the goodies he gave me from APE...the pin he made...not for me though it seems like it's made for me (dykes all over SF are already stalking me to get their own) and then he found that amazing wallet and bought it for me...seriously what a freaking rad guy!!! The best housemate EVER!!! Seriously how freaking awesome is that wallet...seriously...seriously...

Hee hee LEZ wallet...

inappropriate AMAZING pin by Scott...and this picture seems inappropriate...

Scott Barry

 

Bitch Magazine Illustrations by Scott Barry

Plastic Chapel
I had a solo show at a gallery in Denver, Colorado.
Unfortunately the weather was unpermitting and I couldn't make it out there.
So all I have now is pictures of the flyer.
February 2007

Ordinary Kids 2006 Reel Design Boards
Digital Collage
December 2006

Rockfight & Ordinary Kids
Digital Collage
November 2006

Rockfight is a really amazing group of directors from LA.

826 Valencia Childrens Book
Illustration
February 2007

About 30 different Bay Area artists teamed up with a writer from a high school
honors writing class to illustrate their story. I just saw a copy of the book
and it is really beautiful.

Now Hannah Stouffer

Project: 'Breathe' illustration to be used in Communication Arts, IDN and Computer Arts Projects Magazines

Project: 'Monster Truck Safari' banner design for the city of San Francisco's Union square	Client: Upper Playground
Ummmm Tiki and naked ladies....YUM!!!

Project:'Norfolk Terriers' for Wurst Gallery and 'Golden Pin-ups'- thieves ink, gouache on paper, 7 x 9" each

Client:Wurst/ Base Galleries

So much inspiration!!! So much talent...so much eye candy...Happy Tuesday!

xoxo